my windoww

everything in order in a black hole
nothing seems as pretty as the past though..

im waiting for a Monday to kick into full gear.
ahhhhh life is sooo tiring!!!

-taibah out

a day well wasted

"something to blog about", he says it with a laugh.
since when was blogging a bad thing?

-taibah out

Written by Bee

One by one you intrigue me.

You take a hold of me.

You have me trapped.

Not a soul to soul confrontation.

But a soul to soul manipulation.

You got me trapped not in a rebuttal

against wrong and approve of right

but a misunderstood precision.

I learned what love means,

not by being loved by you,

but understanding where you have guided me.

I learned how to see you

and yet you learned how to fool me.

I encouraged right you discouraged it pretty tight.

Your stares and smiles meant allot to me,

but for you it’s like exercise.

Opening them wide eyes, stretching them nice lips,

it all remains a mystery.

No doubt about your kindness, modesty, and wisdom,

but I’m talking truth to the unrelieved.

I gave trust to you, you dragged trust right out.

Layers and layers of unexplainable situations,

deep under tissues with covered skin.

I guess again time will change all that has begun.

I promised a promise that I will understand

why I have such strong feelings

for someone who hasn’t put that much into my system.

I promised a promise that you will always

remain something dear in my heart.

Even if I will never be you’re one.

I’m one on my own.

And one of many that are trapped in your circles

that are in one of small vessels.

A blood cell in your brain.

written by Bee

-taibah out

lets play a love game.

and im asking the same question again and again.

WHY?

it burns everytime. it burned the most tonight

-taibah out

bahahahahahahaaaa!!!

Taibah aka T-BANG! aka Ñïkki aka Pixie aka Khala says:
ohh and raeesa got her eyes peirced!!!
did i show you their new family pic?
Yasmeen says:
her EYES?!!!!
WHAT
you mean ears???
Taibah aka T-BANG! aka Ñïkki aka Pixie aka Khala says:
EARS
yess ears
Yasmeen says:
holy shit
i was like WHAAAAATTTT?!
Taibah aka T-BANG! aka Ñïkki aka Pixie aka Khala says:
LOL
Yasmeen says:
i thought you meant she got her eyebrow pierced
and i was like.....
Taibah aka T-BANG! aka Ñïkki aka Pixie aka Khala says:
HAHAHAHA omgg my poor baby niece

-taibah out

i cant crack my fingers

last night was good times.

despite being in a terrible mood yesterday, it ended quite nicely
isha prayer at the masjid
slurpees at midnight
bon fire with marshmallows ends just around 1:30am.

-taibah out

watch your step kid

its only a dream

just a dream

it wont happen

covered in blood, a bird pecks me to death. 

terrifed. i awake.

where are the heavy scars on my arms? where are they? they were JUST there a moment ago...right?

just a dream

im sorry i walked infront of the bird.

blood and scars.

why is my leg throbbing with pain?

just a dream

ONLY a dream

it wont happen taibah.

...just a dream

*shudders*

-taibah out

ps. this was in my head ALL DAY LONG...

amazing what they do

my friend tells me she finds my dad inspiring, it doesnt come to me as a shock. 

i just nod.

in other news, so much to do, so little time.

todo list:

-call ortho

-call mastercard

-cleanup room

-do laundry

-buy noodles

-pick up book at chapters

-INVEST INVEST INVEST (insha allah!)

-....

more to come, this list is like neverending

-taibah out

keep'em open

-taibah out