im not running away.

im just running away from the pain.
it cant be broken, but it can be torn. you dont know how thats even possible, but apparently it is.
picking up the pieces, again.

-taibah out

and forte!

exhausted, and in much pain. damn kidneys! why arent you normal :(

my mind has literally opened itself up to me in so many ways over the past few months. i dont know whats the difference between right and wrong. good and bad. honesty and lies. truth and loyalty. what is the world coming to? what have i become? what did i WANT to become? people ive once trusted have vanished. bridges have burned. who is to blame? who caused this? what good has it done? what bad has it done?

ahhh life. you just keep getting more and more difficult.
thanks for the memories.

-taibah out

somehow, sometime.

frustration and anxiety are prob 2 of the most worst combination's of emotions you can put in yourself. sometimes we blame the wrong things for our own problems.

which comes to me at no surprise. But as someone told me today "the more you touch dirt, the dirtier you'll get', i realized the truth. And truth is; you're going to get hurt even if you try. Save yourself the ache and just develop the distance. Justice will prevail insha Allah.

-taibah out.

so what?

i start to compare alot of things that happen today to things that ive been busy with in the past.

i told a friend that im starting to give up aiming high in the dunya. theres just too many eyeopeners that im seeing much too often...

taibah out

without a goodbye

perhaps the best thing i can do for myself is simply....take a deep breath and let myself take a step back. once ive stepped back, the next thing to do is put my life ahead of me, and spread it out.

i speak so strongly about 're-evaluating' my friendships that its time i decide to raise the bar on myself. lets re-evaluate my life.

this has been on my mind for awhile now and alhumdulliah, without the distraction of anything else, ive been able to systematize all my thoughts.

i havent been able to pull results. nor do i plan on releasing the results once theyre ready, cuz il never know if the results are ever gonna be ready to expose.

put first things first.
Insha Allah,

theres a lot of work to be done.

-taibah out

the scene that you grow now

i have turned so selfish that it makes me sad. i blame my damn university for this. and my faculty. and my career choices. and why the hell does management class instructor have to be so difficult.

i cant complain now, theres an open window thats left. and i just gotta take it for what it is. Strategic Management, FUCK YOU!!! lol.

there honestly has to be a better day somewhere in the future, that i can look back at these days and laugh. and say "HELL NO" when i get a call for being an alumi and asking me to donate.

new rant: i hate charities that call you and refuse to mail you out packages about what they want you to donate for. and they expect me to trust them with giving out a credit card over the phone? i was almost late for work cuz of you!! :(

i wish finals were over. so i can stop studying in dafoe. damn starbucks in there is making too much money off me.

-taibah out.

pain is a warning that somethings wrong

-taibah out.