so what?

i start to compare alot of things that happen today to things that ive been busy with in the past.

i told a friend that im starting to give up aiming high in the dunya. theres just too many eyeopeners that im seeing much too often...

taibah out

without a goodbye

perhaps the best thing i can do for myself is simply....take a deep breath and let myself take a step back. once ive stepped back, the next thing to do is put my life ahead of me, and spread it out.

i speak so strongly about 're-evaluating' my friendships that its time i decide to raise the bar on myself. lets re-evaluate my life.

this has been on my mind for awhile now and alhumdulliah, without the distraction of anything else, ive been able to systematize all my thoughts.

i havent been able to pull results. nor do i plan on releasing the results once theyre ready, cuz il never know if the results are ever gonna be ready to expose.

put first things first.
Insha Allah,

theres a lot of work to be done.

-taibah out

the scene that you grow now

i have turned so selfish that it makes me sad. i blame my damn university for this. and my faculty. and my career choices. and why the hell does management class instructor have to be so difficult.

i cant complain now, theres an open window thats left. and i just gotta take it for what it is. Strategic Management, FUCK YOU!!! lol.

there honestly has to be a better day somewhere in the future, that i can look back at these days and laugh. and say "HELL NO" when i get a call for being an alumi and asking me to donate.

new rant: i hate charities that call you and refuse to mail you out packages about what they want you to donate for. and they expect me to trust them with giving out a credit card over the phone? i was almost late for work cuz of you!! :(

i wish finals were over. so i can stop studying in dafoe. damn starbucks in there is making too much money off me.

-taibah out.

pain is a warning that somethings wrong

-taibah out.

butterfly rings.

its been a oh-so-busy month. and i really hate how it started out and how it keeps playing out worse and worse. its practically daily something in life, that goes beyond my control, just shoots its way at me. and im much too exhausted to figure out what to do. im worried and anxious.

-taibah

want me girl? i'll be your man.

my hair stinks like chlorine, even after washing it twice with shampoo.
its been an interesting playout again this year. the crazy shit that happens is tiring.
my left arm is twitching. my back kills, i really gotta do those exercises with the exercise ball..

ive been feeling really pissed off lately. almost daily, something or someone HAS to say something to make my mood swing back and forth. i dont know if im allowed to blame anything for this. apparently not. theres afew things that really make my head pop. last week i let my head pop. altho ive been told countless times to simmer down, and altho i have been trying....sometimes i cant even trust myself.

want me girl? i'll be your man...

-taibah out

creepy scents.

 

why cant we just play the other game?

-taibah out

uh oh uh oh uh oh.

say its my fault, but i want it so much.
i can try to pretend, i can try to forget, but its trying me nuts.
...
you're a cup of tea. never the same each time.


-taibah out

texually active ;)

Do not trust your heart.. Cause its not on Right side"

Sometimes i guess you really just gotta go ahead with it. I'll try to breath easily, but still gotta be prepared to fail at the same time. I think our world is overrated.

-taibah out.

sliding down

can i get your hand to write on?

perhaps this is the first time, in a really long time that i finally paid the most attention EVER in school than ever. Too much to handle i guess, everything is much too important. damn group works. i hate getting coffee money from the rents'. happens i guess, esp this time of the year. why does feb screw me over all the time?

a new goal: finding peace, Insha Allah.

-taibah out.