this time, things wont be ok

did i ever think in my life? ever?
did i ever use my head?
most likely no.

for once in my life, i have absolutely no one to turn to.
i look around my room and his words from the weekend came back , "we live in a materialistic world and happiness is considered money and items"
what good are these things to me now?

i had worked all day to keep myself happy, and pretend i was satisfied.
but was i really?
what good are these things to me now?

im 20 years old. yet my mind is still playing in dreamland. everything was a "oh well" or "i got time". thinks always seemed to be turning out ok. but did i ever think, for just a moment, that things wont be ok.

it isnt gonna be ok this time.

-taibah out