Habibi - Je T'aime!

So after i finished attending Jummah on campus today, i took off with my sister and friend to the bus stops. We decided to walk outside cause they had outdoor event going on, not sure what it was, but they had a terrible DJ lol.


Today was the first time ive EVER had to ask for a transfer on the bus. It was scary :( The thing is, i was trying to get my earphones on while my friend and sister jumped on the bus. So after i finally got my earphones on, i went on the bus, i asked the bus driver for the transfer and made my way to the back of the semi-full bus. We were on the #60, the scary bus that goes 'downtown' so i was rather fascinated by the people around me. We later caught the #24 which was rather interesting, the guy near the corner slept the entire time.

To keep myself entertained, i had throw on my earphones, right now i got some stupid songs on my NEW ipod (yup i finally decided to get a new one :D ), but i got this song called "Habibi -Je T'aime", its part english, part french, part arabic. I didnt realize i had my ipod on repeat so it was playing quite abit. i didnt mind tho.

Im getting strange thoughts:

-ever been around one person who you normally get along with, but for some reason you're feeling agitated??
-ever felt the need to say something to someone yet couldnt find the courage to actually say it?
-ever wanted to run away and try hard not to look back but the first step out is the hardest?
-ever had a mental breakdown?
-ever wanted to drive forever?
-ever wanted to cry forever?
-ever wanted to slap someone as hard as you can and then beg for their forgiveness right away??
-ever wanted to sleep all day and wake up feeling like a new person?
-ever wish you were given a second chance?
-ever been thrown into a deep circle of regret?
-ever had that feeling you're being watched as you walk down the road and keep turning arond to see how it is, yet you dont see anyone?
-ever felt like life was turning the wrong way and you think its gonna turn to help you later?
-ever felt grossly disgusted by an act you once thought was normal?
-ever had that feeling of lonliness hit you hard?
-ever wanted to say you're sorry, or want to admit it was your mistake yet you cant even look at yourself in the eye in the mirror
-ever wanted to smash a mirror when you find yourself in deep regret?
-ever wanted to hit the walls so hard that the pain wouldnt leave your fists??

-ever had the feeling you wont be able to change the mistakes you've made
-ever had the feeling you know you've gone tooo far and you cant turn back but rather stop and change you keep going?
-ever wanted to re-create yourself for a better future for others?
-ever walked into an exam and begged yourself not to walk back out after writing your student number on the exam booklet?
-ever had that feeling that you know you're about to fail at life?
-ever wanted to prove the world who you can be, yet never had the time to show it?
-ever wanted the world to know how smart you are and how special each person yet cant even get past their own self?
-ever been afraid of the eyes starring back at you in the mirror?

NO! im not clincally depressed and i havent killed anyone which is making me sound like an emo-child. im just reflexing on life. again. damnit. why do i feel so cold now??

-taibah out.